I haven't written on here for a long time because I got...well, I got discouraged. With moving so much, trying to find a new home, financial issues, moving into a new house and area, and due to lack of training feeling like a complete baby in the world of art, it has been easy to feel down.
The earth (at least our part of it) has been blanketed with snow, and my creativity seems to have been buried underneath it, struggling like a new shoot to reach up through its heavy layers and find some sunshine. This morning however, with most of the snow gone at last, with green fields revealed once more, and golden rays of sunshine casting warm hope on the ground, I managed to find a smile. That smile grew into laughter on my walk with our dog, Ruby, who was extra playful as if to cheer me up, and as I watched birds soaring across the promise of a blue sky enjoying their flight, I even began to feel elated at the simple yet amazing beauty of creation.
My prayer on my walk was that I might become more focused. I know I have gifts in many different areas, and even just in art itself, I can do a lot of different things. But I don't want to be a 'jack of all trades' and master of none, and recognised the need to ask my heavenly Father to help me focus in specific areas of creativity, design and media.
On my return, I glanced at some of my artwork. It's not bad, I thought, but I have such a long way to go. And I need so much help knowing how to get there.
As I did some of my online communications, one of them being to try and get my artwork onto Folksy, a UK art and craft site, some paintings caught my eye. As I looked at this lady's paintings, I realised they expressed so much of what I want to do, combining nature, beauty, expression, bright colours and imagination. I felt a spark on the inside. On a whim, I wrote to her, telling her how much her paintings inspired me to continue, how they helped me to see the kind of thing I want to produce myself, how they helped to give me focus, the very thing for which I prayed.
We began to communicate and I discovered things about her which are similar to myself. Her blog is an inspiration and great help in seeing the processes she uses to achieve her paintings. She also loves words like I do and writes poetry. I have found a new friend, someone who understands, and someone whose work can encourage me to new levels.
It is raining now. The promise of sunshine was brief. But rays of sunshine have fallen on my heart today and warmed it, casting a golden glow of hope and helping that small shoot to continue reaching higher.